Every intention

So i had every intention of writing these last 6 days but just found every reason not too...there hasnt been much happening...just life. I have training for Raley's Friday and Saturday and i am really excited about it :))

So yesterday on Klove there was a guy, maybe a pastor or something, i dont really know who he was, but he said "We are great missionaries in Japan, but not in the US". He was making the point that we search for those that we dont know that need to be saved, but what about those around us. There are people all around us, that we interact with everyday that dont know the love of Christ. Our neighbors, our friends, our colleagues, even some of the people in our family. But we fear to reach out to them, because being rejected by them would hurt more then being rejected by the people that we barely know. So, we grow complacent with the fact that the people around us dont know that there is hope. There is hope that at the end of the dark tunnels that everyone has to go through there is going to be a light. You can give these people the reason that they need to keep going and not to give up. Today while i was sitting in Starbucks "doing homework" there were two ladies next to me that were talking about their church and their love for Christ. So, as i sat her eaves dropping i couldnt help but smile and think 'what do people think that dont't believe in God'? Its like, when i think about it, all of my happiness and love, and life lessons have come from God and His grace, and i just cant even imagine what it would be like to not have that faith. I don't know just a little food for thought. I was definitely convicted to start making sure that the love of Christ is showing through all my actions especially for those that dont know that love.

Well, little fact that some people may not know...i absolutely love writing poetry. I think that its a great way to get out emotions and for me its the best way to put out how i am feeling at any given time. So here is a poem that i wrote in the eighth grade after my Mamu passed away. He was the most amazing grandpa and I  miss him more and more everyday.

Ode to Edmond

There he lays,

Sprinkled across the beach.

He's seen the light,

Touched God's hand,

Sat in the throne.

He knew it was time,

ready to leave,

get rid of this pain and live in harmony.

He had a great life

Lots of love, kindness, and honor

He was a marine

Well, actually, a veteran

A dad, grandpa, husband, brother, son, and friend.

But to me, he was Mamu

Beloved by all, hated by none

He had memories of everything,

The war, his life, and he could never stop talking about us, his grandkids.

He spoiled us with candy, sweets, and gifts

Showering us with surprises everytime we came to visit

Never ceasing to amaze us.

He always forgot my name

Calling me Tina, my mom, or Tasia, my aunt

I'd never get upset

Just chip in and say

"No mamu...It's Seba"

Well may God bless you today

Til tomorrow (maybe :))

XOAbby

SOOOO EXCITED!!

Well two days ago i was called to come into an interview with Raley's yesterday. I was super nervous and excited and i went in there and...came out with a job!! I have honestly not been that excited in a long time. God has been, and continues to be, so good. He continues to provide even when i have felt like giving up. Today i spent the whole day babysitting the Curry children and all in all it was a really fun day!! So, i am still sick and can't wait to get better...and i am still wayyy excited about this job at Raley's!!!

Wow so this is super short and boring...anyways

May God bless you today

Til tomorrow
XOAbby

Day 9: Back on track :)

Lets see...honestly i am not the biggest fan of my english teacher, i am almost 100% positive that she is out to get me. Tonight child development, which is typically a class that i really enjoy, was horrible. There are three people that sit in the front of the class and act like the whole class is like a session with their therapist. So, next week, we have to rush and finish the rest of ch 7 and take notes on all of ch 8 then take our test. I am super annoyed. Other than those two things i realized 2 things today: I really hate having to walk in the rain, and i LOVE Drawsome!!! Its wayyy to addicting.

Honestly today had nothing super awesome happening.

Some food for thought: The God that made the whole entire universe, like, the whole thing, loves you and cares for you more than you can ever imagine. Don't forget that!!

May God bless you today

Til tomorrow
XOAbby

Day 8: Kinda...but not really

So these last three days i have not gotten home before midnight. Friday night was amazing!! Got to hang out with Kayla and saw This Means War. It was so freakin funny and we had a VERY long much needed talk. Honestly, thank God for great friends. Saturday was super busy with a catering that...as always...was really fun..and a little hectic. But, of these three days yesterday was most definitely the best. I went to the Rock and Worship Roadshow with Katy, Emily, Hayley, Brandon, Clayton, and Daniel. It was such an amazing time listening to all these Christian bands and looking around seeing thousands of people with the same heart for the Lord that you do. Even though this was a concert all of the artists did a really great job of making sure that we all stayed focused on why we were all there. They wanted none of the glory but continued to point it straight back to God. After the concert Emily and I went and met Moriah Peters who was one of the new up and coming acts in the beginning of the concert and was honestly amazing. We made a vow to record a song with her...which i dont really know will actually happen but, we can hope :)



Bart Millard who is the lead singer for MercyMe gave an incredible message during the concert. He reminded us that we have a God whose love is everlasting. Nothing that we can do, no matter how bad or horrible we feel it is, will cause God to stop loving us. Thats amazing, huh? I don't know about you but i have done some things that i felt could not be forgiven and made me unworthy of God. Like there was nothing that i could do to make myself feel whole again, or even just a little better. And thats totally true. There is absolutely nothing that i can do, only God can make me whole again. And it wasn't until I fully gave whatever i had done to God that i felt restored and healed. I guess the best thing to remember is that there is a God that loves you so so much and there is nothing that you can ever do to stop that love. So, for all that are fighting it and feel that their problem is to big for God, there is NOTHING that is to big for our God, let him take away the hurt and pain and guilt and shame. He can make you new again. You are loved adored and cherished. You are a child of the Most High. Take comfort in that today :)

May God bless you today

Til tomorrow,
XO Abby

Day 7

Today i went on a job hunt...kinda. I interviewed at Marie Calender's and i think that it went pretty well. This whole job hunting thing is kind of a Debby Downer...the whole not getting a job/not having a job doesn't make me want to look for a job, but i still want a job...It's like this huge vicious circle.

Well anyways, really the only other thing that i did today was go to the youth staff meeting. I really love being a part of staff and seeing the kids that come back every week to youth. Even though some of them think that they are far too cool for school they are still there and they are listening to the teaching. That gives me hope that someday it will all sink in and they will see what they really should be living for. I see everyone living for the now. What feels good, what looks good, and not looking into the future. We are so obsessed with things of this earth that we fail to look into eternity. To see that there is something greater than ourselves out there and worth living for. God says that he came so that we may have life and have it to the fullest. So, I say that we all need to work on living a life that is FULL of Christ and showing his love to all of those around us...even those that we sometimes don't feel deserve it because they are usually the ones that need it the most.

May God bless you wherever you are today

Til tomorrow,
XO Abby

Day 6: Clearly I am not very good at this yet

Soo...even though i have missed a lot of days i am still bound and determined to write a blog everyday (kinda) for a year.

Well this last week and a half has honestly been like one horrible thing after another. Last Monday I was laid off due to Pizza Plus closing FOREVER, and i also got a ticket for talking on my phone while driving. As i attempted to act all sweet and innocent to the cop i still got the ticket and i was so shaky that i could barely sign the ticket. The week followed suit with what felt like one horrible day after another. I feel like i am continuously being let down by the people that i am trusting. I feel like i am losing some of the people that are close to me and it really sucks. I wish that things were as easy as they were in high school. And the thing that has sucked the most is when the people that you look up to, the ones that you thought you could always depend on, let you down. It seems almost inevitable with the fact that we are all human and all fall short, but of course we still put these people up on a pedestal hoping that they won't fail us.And of course when they do it seems to hurt more than we could have imagined.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are younot to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

I read this quote earlier this week and i just thought it was something that we all needed to be reminded of. Its pretty convicting, huh? What a great reminder that we are meant to shine, we are meant to stick out of the crowd and be excited about it. We should be excited to let our light shine for God and let everyone around us see that we aren't just like every other person in this world. That there is something inside of us that makes us different. I think we all need a print out of this to read everyday before we go off to work, or school, or wherever else we go to remind us not to be afraid.

So this is my comeback...and i will definitely keep up with it this time...well at least try a little harder.

Til tomorrow

God bless,
Abby